Thursday, October 09, 2008
Update on Badger
I finally got the urine results back on Badger, and the good news is that the E.Coli infection has cleared up. For that, I'm truly thankful. However, he continues to 'decline'. Unfortunately, I'm really starting to believe that the vet who suggested that it might be a brain tumor is right. The 'seizures' have steadily increased not only in frequency but also in intensity, and some of them now involve his whole body. He has them throughout the entire day now. He also has steadily worsened in his balance, especially in the hind legs. And he's really sensitive to the sunlight in his eyes now. The vet has switched him from prednizone to a generic version of Neurotin but I can't see any change at all in him, better OR worse. He just continues to 'decline'. I'm slowly giving way to acceptance that he will probably not recover from whatever it is. Do I really need to tell you how many tears have been shed in the last few weeks? I finally had a long 'talk' with him the other day about the 'Rainbow Bridge', and told him that when he's ready he can go, that I'll be okay as long as I know that he's 'free to chase bugs and deer and run run run with his little ears flying in the breeze without pain'. I'm not giving up on him, but as I said, I'm slowly gaining some acceptance. He will always be the love and light of my life, that one most precious little face with the silky soft fur, with more zest and courage for life than anyone or animal that I know, that one bonded heartbeat, unlike anything I've ever had with all of the pets that I've had throughout my 52 years, that will always be there.