Good Friday/Easter Weekend

That little fur doll is Cassie.  My neighbor was pup sitting for a couple of days and we both just adore Cassie.  We brought her over to my house to check out these big cats.  :). 

I colored my Easter eggs.  Wouldn't be Easter without colored eggs.  Then my niece suggested finding some fabric to dye with the dye and look!!!  They are delightful!!  I may cut up some more men's hankies and use up some more of the egg dye.  They are luscious.

Hope everyone has a beautiful Easter weekend.

I Made It

 

I got up really early and did go to the lake.  That is about an hour's drive for me.  It was a glorious day!  And after I sat and had my initial cry as soon as I got there, I got on with thoroughly enjoying the beautiful day. My closest neighbors are wonderful, and treated me to lunch as well as an open door for drinks and the bathroom.  My water has been cut off for the winter months, and I can't stay at my house until that is turned back on-----and a whole lot of dust and bugs and dirt is gotten up.  As I said, it's been about 2 years since I was there last.  It was very emotional, and so strange without Marlee with me.  My world looks a whole lot different than it did just a couple of years ago.  I am totally exhausted.  I have only been home an hour, so I got in some driving in the dark which I haven't done in years either.  The trip was really good for me in so many ways.

Daydreaming

Our weather is so strange now.  Today is supposed to be 70 and sunny after the fog (which we rarely have and I love!) dissipates.  Tomorrow 74 and sunny.  These warm summer-like days are a delight but throw me off.  They tease me into thinking that it is going to stay this warm from now on without any chillier days/nights, which isn't how it will be.  My heart yearns to be back at the lake, and I may go there tomorrow just to dip my toes back into the life that Randy and I lived there.  There is so much work to be done there, and I have to go back for lengthy periods of time this summer to get some of that done, but for right now, I just need to BE there, even for a few hours.  

I have noticed that I am having more anxiety to deal with in the last month or two.  Is this a normal occurrence after the ordeal that was last year?  I don't know, but it does make it harder for me to spontaneously do things, go places, just get in the car and drive now without a lot of over-thinking.  I am hoping that the more I force myself to do the things that cause me anxiety, that it will lessen over time.  This last year changed me in so many ways, both outwardly and inwardly, that I hardly recognize myself right now. 

March 2024